Okay, so I am putting this out there on my blog so I actually do it. Tomorrow I am going to go to my first Weight Watchers meeting in quite a few years. There. I said it. I had done it so many years ago with great success, so I am hoping the magic is there again this time around.
The past 6 months have been stressful with Mike being in and out of the hospital. I have never been one of those "I am so stressed I just can't eat" kind of people. I am the opposite...Eating is a way for me to release my stress and continue an imaginary love affair with food. And, not just food that is good for you. Nope. My love affair is anything salty, crunchy, and loaded with all sorts of goodness. This distraction during the stressful times has led me to (I believe) put on anywhere from 15-20 pounds. My pants don't fit well. There are fat creases that were never there before. You ask...why don't you just weigh yourself? I am saving that graceful, wonderful moment for tomorrow morning, my official first weigh in.
I just need to be reminded that hunger is okay every once in a while. That I don't need to eat the whole bag of chips, and actually I could substitute a rice cake for that bag of chips. I want to remember how to eat fresh, yummy foods at a normal serving size instead of the large portions I dish out. Oh, and I want my pants to fit again!
So...wish me luck. I will not pull an Oprah and advertise for all to see my current weight. I will however keep you posted on my journey and hopefully count my successes!
Fall
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
Quote
"The privilege of a lifetime is being who you are."-Joseph Campbell
I saw this quote on an email signature from someone at work. Something about it strikes home to me!
I saw this quote on an email signature from someone at work. Something about it strikes home to me!
Saturday, April 11, 2009
He's Home and Take Me Out to the Ballgame
Mike is home! He came home on Wednesday. He is spending a lot of time resting...he has been through so much that he needs to recuperate from recuperating.
Liz and I had a very well deserved day out yesterday-we went to the Rockies home opener. We had so much fun-both of us have been through a lot over the past few weeks that we needed this time to just play. Mike's dad came over to watch the game with him and brought hot dogs and all foods baseball so it could be like they were there.
Liz and I had a very well deserved day out yesterday-we went to the Rockies home opener. We had so much fun-both of us have been through a lot over the past few weeks that we needed this time to just play. Mike's dad came over to watch the game with him and brought hot dogs and all foods baseball so it could be like they were there.
Friday, April 3, 2009
What's been going on?
I am finding our new Macbook to be an asset while Mike is in the hospital. While he sleeps I can look stuff up on the internet or check my work email to keep up. This was a darn good purchase.
Mike was moved from the cardiology floor to the oncology floor today which was a welcomed move. The nurses here are awesome...so compassionate and in tune with pain management. He is supposed to start his chemotherapy today and it will be a 3 day infusion. The hope is that he will feel better with less pain, and that he will be able to come home and do the rest of the chemo treatments as an outpatient. But let's just take it one step at a time, shall we? That is what I find...every minute needs to be purposeful.
Our friends and family have been amazing. Mike's dad drives an hour and a half total to come and sit with Mike daily for hours on end...I don't know what I would do without him relieving me for a while. My parents care for the dogs and go grocery shopping for me, my brother cares for the dogs as well. My friend Susan took me out to dinner last night and listened to me, gave me comfort and friendship. Meg, Emily and Ellen gave us gift cards to Whole Foods, and another group of friends sent the most lovely bouquet of flowers. Other friends have sent cards, emails and well wishes, and we know we are always in their thoughts. My work has been great, as has Mike's, in being supportive of us during this time.
I have realized that every day is a gift; every day I get to see Mike is an even greater gift. I take my health for granted and I am learning to just enjoy the moment because tomorrow it may be a whole other story. My husband is amazing and brave, so much more than I would be. The docs would have to give me ample amounts of valium in order to deal with all this...but not Mike. He is brave, he never complains or yells out, he doesn't lose his patience. I admire him more than I ever have from all this. I feel so lucky that we chose each other and that he is in my life.
Mike was moved from the cardiology floor to the oncology floor today which was a welcomed move. The nurses here are awesome...so compassionate and in tune with pain management. He is supposed to start his chemotherapy today and it will be a 3 day infusion. The hope is that he will feel better with less pain, and that he will be able to come home and do the rest of the chemo treatments as an outpatient. But let's just take it one step at a time, shall we? That is what I find...every minute needs to be purposeful.
Our friends and family have been amazing. Mike's dad drives an hour and a half total to come and sit with Mike daily for hours on end...I don't know what I would do without him relieving me for a while. My parents care for the dogs and go grocery shopping for me, my brother cares for the dogs as well. My friend Susan took me out to dinner last night and listened to me, gave me comfort and friendship. Meg, Emily and Ellen gave us gift cards to Whole Foods, and another group of friends sent the most lovely bouquet of flowers. Other friends have sent cards, emails and well wishes, and we know we are always in their thoughts. My work has been great, as has Mike's, in being supportive of us during this time.
I have realized that every day is a gift; every day I get to see Mike is an even greater gift. I take my health for granted and I am learning to just enjoy the moment because tomorrow it may be a whole other story. My husband is amazing and brave, so much more than I would be. The docs would have to give me ample amounts of valium in order to deal with all this...but not Mike. He is brave, he never complains or yells out, he doesn't lose his patience. I admire him more than I ever have from all this. I feel so lucky that we chose each other and that he is in my life.
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